*SIGH*

Well the studying is still going fairly well. I'm consistently getting in the range that i wanted... but the score keeps going down. i'm not really sure if it's the fact that I'm not simulating the conditions well enough or the fact that some things I just don't know. The good thing is that I am actually "getting" the difficult parts of the test. The logic games are starting to make sense to me and that feels good. But there are still some things that I am unsure of. Tonight will be the lock myself in my room and study all night session.

Life has taken an interesting turn for me lately. Spending the last two years living with Brooks taught me a lot about myself... and moving out with two roommates has taught me a lot more. I hated how quiet the house would be when i lived with Brooks, i hated not having anyone to talk to when he didn't have anything to say to me. With my roommates i always have someone to talk to. The problem is, the moody side of me doesn't always feel like talking. One thing that is hard for me to adjust to is how loud it can be with three people in the house. Granted i do my fair share of yelling and acting crazy, but sometimes i just wish everyone would be quiet. I've never really lived with "loud" people before. even when Ronnie (crackhead) and his 6 friends were at the house it was never particularly loud. I definitely feel out of my element.

For awhile i wasn't sure why i felt that way, either. My cats tipped me off to it believe it or not. When I brought them to the house, they were miserable. They aren't used to people raising their voices either and so everytime someone would yell, they'd jump. Seeing how often they jumped made me realize just how noisy it was.

Talking to my psychologist yesterday made me think about a lot of stuff too. I think that now that the Ritalin is kicking in, she's ready to move onto the other aspects of my life, particularly marriage and my future. I don't have as much anxiety as i did before, not sure if that has to do with being able to focus or not, but I think that i have a lot of issues from my childhood to work through.