Thursday, July 29, 2004

Also, you can get an idea of what else I'm dealing with here

Progress is Relative

So the apt is about 75% semi complete... All but one box remains... I am almost ready to bring my kids (cats) home, and its starting to look like somewhere i really want to be. I'm trying to really make it feel like home cuz i'mma be here a LOT.

There's a lot going on right now, but once again I just don't feel ready to articulate it... so I'mma just keep talkin about my apt :-p So I'm in walking distance of SEVERAL places, including a bookstore, a Thai Restaurant, and a Chipotle.... i don't think i need to even go on, but i will. I'm across the street from the metro and a grocery store. I've never lived so close to the metro, but i already enjoy it.

Although i seriously regret not being able to move away, I can honestly say that i think i made the right choice.

Off to clean some more.

Monday, July 26, 2004

I'm Goin Thru It

So I cut short my vacation due to excruciating pain and the possibility of more money... I had no idea what i was in store for. It took us about 4 days to get everything out of that house and clean up. By last night me and nate were exhausted. But it's done, the kitchen is spotless, the floors are clean and the bathrooms sparkle. The sense of accomplishment is great... but my body is upset with me for the excess physical exertion. But it was cool to hang out with nate.

In other news....

Let's see the Jill Scott show was great, she's beautiful.
I love Cali more than ever
School starts shortly
I need sleep


That's about it. The truth is i have alot to say but i don't think i need to let it out right now.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Exhaustion

I am mentally and physically exhausted... and there is very little rest in sight for me. When I get on that plane tomorrow, i am going to curl up and do everything in my power to sleep all the way to cali. I have been up late EVERY single night for like the past week. Between packing and just not being able to sleep, i am really just doing too much. I signed my lease yesterday and moved like two things into my apt. Yay me... I also went to Ikea yesterday and caught an amazing sale! $18 bookcases are what's up! Tonight I plan to take as much of my stuff to the apt as possible without pissing anyone off. I don't want the other residents to feel *uncomfortable* lol

I'm really lookin forward to my vacation too. I'm just going to try not to spend it thinking about the massive clean up effort that i will have to do when i get back. I've asked a few people to help and they've agreed, but i don't know if my pride will let me do that. But yeah, I'd like to move as much stuff as possible tonight and then put the rest on a truck when i get back. Then i can spend the last week of July cleaning.

But first... i need SLEEP!

Monday, July 12, 2004

Just take the bad...

My mom just called me at work (she's finally speaking to me again). Since my dad's car was messed up, he had to have it towed to the dealer. The idea was that he'd ride to the dealership on the tow truck, and then once the car was signed in or whatever, he'd call my mom and have her call a cab. Well for whatever reason, he never called her... but he showed up at home a few minutes ago, saying he had walked from the car dealer... 5 miles... on the highway.

I feel very sick right now.

You take the good, you take the bad

Well, believe it or not, after my inability to fall back asleep at 4am, my day has turned to crap... and it's only 10am. So i've been tryna do this renter's insurance thing because i'm scared as hell of having my stuff in jeopardy, and they're having all these problems putting my info thru... FINALLY they tell me they can't insure that apt because a claim was filed in the past 3 years for water damage.... *sigh*

So now i'm tryna see if i can find another apt in the building that'll be available tomorrow... ummm yeah.

But that's not the best part! I made the mistake of speaking to my mom about how she treats my father. I feel like she makes him feel incompetent. It's no secret that his mental capacity is diminishing, but i don't think that not letting him do anything for himself is the way to go. At any rate, i hurt her feelings and she hung up on me. I tried to call back and explain and she hung up again. I just need to shut myself away some place and ignore the rest of the world.

I need sleep

Weekend Recap

I don't even know where to begin except to say that the fun i had almost made the exhaustion worth it.

This weekend was Dae and Sha's b-day weekend (Dae Thursday, Sha Saturday) so we tried to do it big for both of em. Now to say that i am stressed about my move would be a severe understatement so i was a bit cold to the idea of not doing move stuff this weekend, but i decided to let go and do my best. soooo Thursday night we hung out with Dae at a pretty chill spot in Adam's Morgan. It wasn't for as long as i would have liked but it was a chill spot and the DJ was on point. Friday was Modern for Sha's bday. That was a good time as well. Everyone showed their asses lovely and it was an all around good party... except for the 21 year old that tried to put me on lock for a bit...

Saturday Saturday Saturday... the infamous King's Dominion trip. i don't even know what to say about the trip. The highlights for me were the chicken pass, the bottomless cup, and Dodgem... but i don't even feel like getting into details. But yeah by Saturday night i was too exhausted to move. The combination of the 11 of us in that park + Kanye East made for good times and lots of laffs.

In moving news, it's coming along slowly but surely. I went to Target today with my mom and brother. They were there to buy a wedding present. My mom wanted to buy me something for the new apt but the truth is she just didn't have the money to do it. It hurt me to see her so frustrated because she hasn't been able to put any money towards the move or school. I've tried to tell her that she's done enough over the past 28 years, but i know she still feels like she's failing me. As much I wanted to do big things with this move i needed to weigh a lot of factors, namely location, safety, and location.... o and location. This spot is 2 metro stops (5 minutes) from school so that's a plus. There were some other spots that i was considering but after checking apartmentratings.com, i knew they weren't for me. I know that people tend to use that service to complain, but comparing places i've lived to that list i can see that most of the complaints are valid. At any rate, i am in love with my new apt (hotel as sha called it) and I'm glad i chose it.

I think that's it for now... although i'll prolly update later with other stuff that's on my mind.

Friday, July 09, 2004

Take a deep breath

I think i'm calming down over here. With the help of my first dose of Ritalin in about 2 months, I have made calls to set up my utilities with minimal effort. I was even able to get my phone service set to be turned on next week... rather than the usual 3 week waiting period.

On top of that, i went to speak with HR who informed me that my "vacation pay" for all those days i never took, will be included on my last paycheck on the 15th (rather than the 1st). That means that i won't have to wait to buy furniture and stuff like that.

I need to continue to write everything down because it definitely helped me to keep my sanity.

Overwhelmed

I am scheduled to move into my apartment on Tuesday... and I've packed 3 boxes. This weekend is packed between the club and the trip to King's Dominion and runnin errands with Nate. I am on a VERY tight schedule and i honestly don't know what i'm going to do about it

*sigh*

Time to call all the utilities people and try to set up some sort of service...

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

R.I.P. Barney Smart

Barney Smart, Director of bands at Hampton University, passed away last Friday. The time i spent at Hampton University in the Marching Band was part of what kept me sane. The friends I made there, and the time that i spent there taught me a lot about myself. One thing i will always remember about Mr. Smart was the level of respect that he required we maintain at all times. It can't be an easy task to keep 200+ college students in line, but he always managed to do it. There's so much more i feel about his passing, but the words aren't coming to me right now.

In the event that any Marching Pirates are reading this, please feel free to email me or to use the "comments" section to share your memories. Also, please feel free to add to the Guestbook provided by The Daily Press

God Bless

Rest In Peace Barney Smart

Peace

For so long i have looked for it and at last i found it in you.

Thank you.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

PSA

"Tear the Club Up" and coffee at 9:30am do NOT mix. Not the Three 6 mafia version... the go-go version. I have very fond memories of the endless hours spent in the Mirage dancin to this and the other songs in the go-go mix. I don't even know how to explain this music, but i love how it makes me feel... the good old days :)

Yesterday i was talking to one of the people that i work with about how i hope law school will enable me to stay connected to music and how much i really love being around music. Sometimes i think my life would be much simpler if i had been born male as long as i was a tall male. Unfortunately being a woman in the urban music industry makes it damn neart impossible to succeed. But i'm not giving up so i sincerely hope these fools are ready to deal with me... damnit!